Encouraging Words...to Self!

I received this card several times in the past few weeks.  I read it, and would somewhat dismiss it with the usual "yeah, yeah..I'm compassionate" and followed with the "what does it mean not to be hard on myself...I am not...".  When I got this card again today, after briefly skimming and doing the yeah, yeah, yeah...I decided to really read it, and I got that "life flashed in a split second" kind of event and recent experiences came into the forefront of my thoughts.

As the images flashed and formed, and dissolved, the feelings that triggered during the recent experiences danced within for awareness and movement once again.  Feeling again the somewhat disappointment, lack of enthusiasm, doubt, and settling into tapping into the intuition..then questioning it!!!

I realized as relationships have moved on, those once close have chosen differant paths and fallen away...I am left standing with me, myself, and I..  No one really left who I had become dependent on in the past to share my dreams, ideas, concerns,...those that once knew me well enough to validate my intuitive moments, to send out an encouraging word towards my weird ideas or extravagant dreams..you know, just someone for a moment of upliftment to keep riding on cloud 9.That compassionate sharing that was extended.

Yet, throughout this whole process I have continued to express upliftment to others I come in contact with.  Trying to be as postive as I can.  Share my own stories for encouragement as that example that anything in life is indeed possible.  Sending out encouraging words with a loving embrace. Extending my compassion and understanding to those I may come in contact with.  But as I've spent a lifetime encouraging others, and now stand alone on my unique path, I have now become aware, that the Quan Yin card is indeed accurate...for I have not been being my own upliftment, my own compassionate being, my own validator of intuition and standing in trust of Self.

Very, very interesting...I have always been a go getter...very independent, and considered myself a person who lacks the word failure generally from my vocabulary...but with this revelation I can see where I can raise myself to another level.  I smile as I give myself an energetic embrace of my own deepest love, like I can love no other but Self.


xoxoxo