I AM SICK WITH A COLD!!! ARRRGHH!

I woke up with a cold/flu!!!!!  I can't believe it!  It feels like forever since I've had a cold.  It's probably been a year, but it feels like a lifetime ago.  I despise colds.  Yes, Yes..it serves, it serves, it serves.  And yes, yes...we experience both ends of the poles..sick/well, happy/unhappy, etc etc etc.  This too shall pass, and I will be well again.

It's been a while since I've not listened...but I will admit that the body gave me signs days ago, and I choose to ignore them.  I really wanted to finish transforming my space, so I could completely unpack and not feel like I'm living out of a suitcase.  Even with my leg muscles sore, arms sore and hands hurting from pulling carpet staples out of the floor...I pushed on!  I did.  

I also become very aware of the fact that I am way out of shape.  Not a good thing.  It's been months since I've done any yoga..no walks outside..nada..zilch!!!  So as the soreness crept in, I told myself that I would stop this bullshit of ascension symptoms, and the energetics kicking my ass so bad that I can't go take care of my body.  I am not going to disagree that some downloads can knock me on my ass some days...but it's not everyday!  I am not surprised physically that I developed a cold!

Yesterday morning when I was still cold/flu less, I did wake up with an overwhelming sense of wanting to go back to work!  WTF!!!  Here I am, being...enjoying the sense of freedom for the past 4 months, and all of a sudden i want back in!  Nov/Dec was a damn rollercoaster ride, and letting go of my place...and now that that is over, released, let go of things to the humph degree, I want to go back???  I felt ready, and ready to go back with a new zest for life, gratitude, integrations..etc  Yet, I am not getting any responses to my resumes.  None.  But to be honest...i am not surprised either.

Root of the Issue...

I looked within...actually I did more of a step out, to look at what was going on, and why now this sense of wanting to go back to work?  Why am I not trusting that All is well, and everything will manifest in divine timing?  It took me a bit to consciously acknowledge this morning while I couldn't breathe from a stuffy nose.. it's about finances.  Yup, yup..hahaha oh well!!!  It's been worth it!  And of course the mind reminds me of all the places I want to explore on this beautiful Earth, that at the present moment I am not going to, because I made other choices...and will wait for the potentials to come back around.

Root Chakra is blocked from job and finance concerns, soooo, I wake up with a cold totally congested..go figure!!!!

Conscious and Aware

I still get caught at times in my own mental traps...yet I am sure acknowledging; being conscious and aware, are my golden tickets to being well from my cold/flu, and of course anything else in my life.

Flip the coin...

On the bright side...what gives me a big smile even with a cold, is I'm almost done with my project!!!!!

-Mom's clutter and ugly furniture out of the room-DONE

-New Closet organizer-DONE

-Room painted "cool sky" blue-DONE

-Ugly, oppressive carpet removed-DONE

-Laminate floors installed-DONE

-New baseboards-paint should be dry in the morning! (can't wait to play with the nail gun-woohoo)

Looks like February starts out with me personalizing my space w/furniture and accessories..and totally unpacking...I can't wait!!!

All Is Well in the Universe!!!!!! (sniffle)

Carol

Could it Be Just a Dream?

Is it All Just a Dream?


I've been getting lost in painting the room my parents graciously have let me occupy.  I'm just about ready to move onto re-doing the floors...and I somehow got lost in thoughts and daydreams...


As I stop for a moment and take a bit of a brake...I flashed on years ago when I saw the movie the Sixth Sense..or whatever it was called when the kid can see spirits/ghosts.  I remember when I saw this movie and the difficult phase I was in at that time in my life.  I once again was in one of the phases wondering if there was more to life...if there was more!  And the synchronicities came into play to where I went to go see this movie.


Though I don't like to admit certain things, I do remember feeling uncomfortable from that movie and it did trigger some childhood memories and not liking things that "go bump in the night"...but what made a huge impact on me, was that feeling of life being one big misunderstanding and being in just a dream. 


I don't know how many times this lifetime, I have felt that nothing is real...it's all like some kind of crazy fucked up dream.  I remember in the movie, those scenes towards the end when the doctor flashes back on the past few days events, and how he interpreted peoples actions and reactions to him...and then "waking up" to realize that he was already dead and had misinterpeted what was going on and why his wife reacted and said what she did.  Talk about the understanding in the sayings "You create your own reality!"


I don't know how many times this lifetime I have felt the same.  I don't know how many times I have wondered and have whispered to the ethers my question "Am I already dead and in a made up world, like a dream...acting and reacting to people and events that truly aren't there, or isn't real?"  Is it all an illusion made up from my mind being projected?  

Almost like when I ponder if I might be deaf and only believe I can hear because no one has ever told me I'm deaf...but that I can leave to another crazy blog post..haha

I don't even know if this post makes sense...since it is more of an internal feeling and very difficult for me to express in words.  Sometimes I look at people around me..and feel truly no one is really there...

Changing Dreams...


I also recall a time when I was inundated with nightmares as a child.  I couldn't sleep (i still have issues sleeping...bump in the night fears!).  I had watched some public program about being able to change your nightmares...like take control and turn them around.  I became very mastered at it, and even today I can become somewhat conscious in a dream and turn a nightmare around.


Then I wonder...if this is a dream that I call "awake", why have I not been able to instantly change the "nightmare"?  Why does it not seem so instant to change an unpleasantry into pleasant?


I'm not sure the answer, but I shall try to consciously change things around and dream pleasant dreams...


Kero