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Boy, isn’t November turning into such a bitch with old belief and old patterns smacked dab in One’s face!!!!  I’m calling this month, the month of “Patterns from the Past”.  It’s been an interesting month to once again let go that which no longer serves.  It’s going even deeper than before, because the behaviors and patterns aren’t the typical patterns One has already released and broken from during this process…these are patterns that come up every 5-10 years, so at first that don’t even seem like patterns, but some random experience that defies any Universal Law.  However, they indeed follow the Universals Laws and really put us threw the test of being able to use all tools and energy work into place..walk the talk, per se, and remain grounded and centered.

This month also seems to continue the intensity of completing any karmic and soul contracts…especially those with family that we may be still holding on to, due to the beliefs one has around family and family unity.  I for One, become aware this weekend of some family dynamics that I had not paid attention to in the past…especially since I have only become once again involved with my biological family less than three years.  I will honestly say, what I observed this weekend, has once again deepened the desire to not really interact with them..and through intent have release the energetic ties that may still be holding on for dear life.  Though I do believe all experiences serve, and harmony can be obtained even in an unharmonious environment..for all energy can be transmuted to serve..but I also do not object from the simply act of removing Oneself from what does not serve.

The truth is, I enjoy so much more communicated with soul family, then I do with biological family.  At least for now, while remaining contracts are coming into closure, until the time comes that some relationships can come back together anew.

I didn’t feel much physical symptoms for the 11/11 portal..but I did have a moment that felt like multiple personality disorder..and the old feelings of doubt and distrust rose to the service.  I was cursing this process and path…wanted to jump out of my skin and just be done with it.  It was probably a 48hour episode…with the highlight being some weird feelings of seeming to have asthmatic episodes.  Boy was I relieved when that shit was over..and back to center.  I am also glad, that in that moment I almost made some decision that I had not intuitively gone in to feel if it would serve my highest good..and before committing, I decided to wait a week or so before doing a “feel” it and deciding.  Whewww!!  LOL 

Going into mid-month now, I am once again feeling the excitement of this life ending, and once again getting the glimpses of a new beginning just peering around the corner.  I see the beauty of sporting patterns that will serve.  I smile knowing all that I have asked for…All that I have worked for…everything I deserve and I am worthy of is on it’s way!!! 

I smile knowing…I am that I fucking AM..OH YEAH!!!!

Carol